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horsepoems
i.
desolation raped the vine.
blackest ink pouring through
astonished fingers—the wound
a crack in the crown.
it is not known
if the damage is repairable.
seal it
with fool’s gold for now
and carry on
as if all has gone
according to the divine plan.
ii.
if wanting you
was sin let me
confess it now
and be absolved.
if i was not mistaken
to be wary, i am
wary now. it was not
your time or place
to speak of love.
love is not love
when it has been
corrupted by fear.
even a single impurity
renders the data moot.
from this,
i have only learned
to be more careful
when trying to walk
in god’s footsteps.
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and so but like
in the time of the most extreme oceans
my stomach is very thin,
almost sack-like.
time is like a river,
river-like.
but, also, our lifelines become rivers
and start winding.
in the times of the most extreme skyscrapers
your hands are very thin,
almost nonexistent.
time is very frightening to think about
but, so are your hands.
but, also, the snow falls very heavily
and we collapse, like rivers.
in the time of the most extreme trains
the evenings are very long,
almost endless.
muscles are knot-rope strong:
the blood, of course, slips around above.
but, also, the skin splits apart
and falls aside, like rivers.
in the time of the most extreme streetlamps
my heart is very thin,
almost sticker-like.
time is very thin, also:
and miles are that way, too.
but, also, the city light becomes river-like
so we drown in it.
in the times of the most extremely long, emotional, blue subway lines
the rest of the lines
get very thin,
almost meaningless.
architecture rises out of nowhere and changes.
but,
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runic cross 1
RIT, sunwheel, career, employment, journey
NAUT, need, warnings, omens, constraint
FEOH, cattle or fee, possessions, love, kindness, friendship, romance, passion, value, concern
SKJEBNE, destiny, fate, the unknown
SIG, sun, winning decisions, wholeness, judgement, choice
HAGAL, hail, destructions, separations, chaos, violence
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something something 'a map of your body'
yours and
mine, and yours should be
with mine,
whether it be
slightly intoxicated,
the heat of your hands, or
fully awake seeking skin,
and skin, and skin.
that mouth,
a gateway
to someplace i didn't
know i wanted to be.
something like
the sound of my watch ticking in my ear
when i have your lip in my teeth
and my hands in your hair pulling
your head back to find your pulse
with my breath and i feel less alone
because you feel it, too.
it's hard for me, for once,
to put it in concrete terms,
perhaps because it is so tangible,
so i hope
i don't have to say anything,
and your body
in my bed
can be the words;
but sweetheart,
when i said you were gorgeous,
i meant something else.
i meant that you move me
slowly, more
each day
since i fell into you, i meant
you, just you, wholeheartedly,
i meant
i am drunk on my bedroom floor writing this and i want
you, your body, your hands, your heart,
and i'll be satisfied
with nothing less.
you,
tracing a map
on my skin,
and holy, the way i always want
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falling for you
the feeling somewhere in between the pink lights
on your face; thinking you were gorgeous
but still afraid to say it out loud,
yet not
afraid to mouth it
against your neck.
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why i'm scared
because i don’t want to close my eyes when i kiss you;
like i am afraid of falling asleep
or letting even one precious moment
slip by me.
because i bought a train ticket,
and boarded on the wrong line,
but arrived at the right place all the same,
and it was easy to tell you
that same metaphor.
because i made the right choice
when i was too drunk to see beyond
my immediate physical craving,
and i slept even better sober
in your bed.
because yearning is not
passion.
because desire doesn’t have to be overwhelming.
because beauty
can creep up on you softly.
because you walked away from me as soon as you learned
my name, but when it mattered,
you were the one who stayed.
because it makes so much sense.
because you are real
because you are real.
because you are real.
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bad blood :iconssleep:ssleep 2 3
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i don't mind it when you misgender me
so what does that make me, and you
in relation to me;
that i could allow myself to be wronged
so deeply,
all for you
to call me your name.
i walked in on you as you were kissing her goodbye.
the sun rose and set and i went to bed a stranger,
and my bed was a stranger as well.
what if i told you
i thought meeting you was something important
and what if i told you the truth,
honestly, i promise,
i know
i will be okay when i start to miss being alone.
i like your hair and your voice and the way you smell.
i like watching your face when you talk and how
your eyelashes are two different shades of blonde.
i like you react to being touched
and i like
how i feel like i’ve never met anyone like you
because you’re just you, and not any ‘type’ of person.
when i talk to you, i start stories and never finish them.
i feel out of my depth here, and it’s okay because i’m meant to.
would it be okay
if i slept on your futon and wrote
about how it felt compared to the
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after life dating
your tumblr anons call me back
from my coma reminding me
of the conversations we used to have,
and it was only two days ago but it feels
like months, like years, like i have
buried the memories under papers and dust
in my bedroom and the box they are kept in
is cracked and screams when i open it.
when will i stop sleepwalking,
will the stones in my eyes lift
and allow me to see what is in front of me
even if it is too much to bear
and when
WILL MY INSIDES SPILL OUT OF MY STOMACH TO STAIN
MY BEDSHEETS I RECLAIMED
MY BODY FROM YOU BUT THERE IS SO MUCH WASTE
WITHIN IT THAT I’M NOT SURE
I WANT IT ANYMORE, THE JOY
OF FINDING I STILL REMEMBER ME
WITHOUT YOU IS SOURED
WHEN I RECALLED THE EXTENT TO WHICH
I LOATHE MYSELF.
they whisper words they stole
from my mouth, words they
could never know and they
deliver them so sweetly to
your inbox like you could
be wondering if they’re me
and maybe it means that
i speak in cliches maybe
it means that i was not
special and the tongue i
reser
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genesis / oblivion :iconssleep:ssleep 2 0
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don't
i am not enough for you so don't follow me
you are the brightest flower
& i was born to rot
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winged
touch me on my heart & make it sing
acts of women
are more powerful than acts of god
you, darling
are divine
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truth in cliches
too much in me
for one vessel to contain
your body, my body,
endless fields
of skin
all my letters dedicated to you
but unaddressed:
it was always
you
in my heart;
the most resilient
bird
dots on the backs of my hands
tracing out my veins
all the rivers & all
the roots lead back to you
all the lines converge
on your chest
all our breaths
pace
the same
you are still
the tallest shadow
you are still
the brightest star
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in the dark
i want to be more than
the clay in your hands
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never meant
a ballad about how i jumped the gun & told you
i was in love with you the day we met
a slow, desperate song about lying
a downtempo hardcore ep entitled "running away"
the tenderest emo instrumental that whispers "i'm sorry"
in your ear as i leave your bed
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home
Nothing much is here
Red Naugahyde on the booths in the old-time ice cream store at the end of the block
A five-and-ten
Wires falling out the back of a traffic control box
Inside, we cook
We don’t clean
We don’t talk or touch each other
Outside, I climb the big tree,
The biggest tree
The tree I always feared would fall
Nothing much is here
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trunk
muscles here support you
a hose to suck you dry
a list of places you've been
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ssleep

Artist | Literature
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they/them pronouns


i write. i'm trying to write more. i love you.

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EndFriday Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2015  Hobbyist Photographer
thank you :) 
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remeron-nap Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2014
Heart 
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thesquareroot Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
thanks for another volley of faves, it's always appreciated :XD:
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chromeantennae Featured By Owner Aug 18, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
As I come across your page, I see you have some excellent poetry-- but what sealed the deal was your "currently listening to" list.

When I saw Jay Z & Kanye West's Watch The Throne I smiled, but when I say Kendrick Lamar's good kidm.A.A.d city I was just like, "Yep, I must add this girl to my watchlist RIGHT NOW." :heart:

But really, great music taste and more importantly, wonderful writing. :love:
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ssleep Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2014   Writer
thank you! i'm not a girl tho!
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chromeantennae Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
*laughs* My apologies then, sir! Your music taste is still hella dope. B-) And your poetry is fantastic too.
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ssleep Featured By Owner Sep 1, 2014   Writer
thank you c:
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Darija-Blue Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2014
Thank you.
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KLPTRXXI Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2014
Hi!
Thank you for all fav's :) I am very pleased!
And i love your webcam shot ;)
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Ghrey Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2014  Student Writer
thank you so much for reading :heart:
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